Being woken up. I hate being woken up before I feel as if I’d had enough sleep. I get pissy, and I’m also very easily led astray from what I intend on doing. Like yesterday. My fiance woke me up because my mom came home, and the first thing anyone tells me is that her and her friend brought home Dairy Queen for everyone. I was so groggy I didn’t even process it. Just ate it. It wasn’t until about 15-20 minutes after I’d finished that I realized what I’d done. I felt so awful. And I mean physically. I felt sick, like I was about to puke, and I had horrible stomach pains. I hate fast food so much.
Couldn’t do it. Haven’t tried (nor would I want to), but I know can’t. I love food WAAAY too much to not eat for days! Plus, hunger pains DESTROY me. And I become the most irritable person who ever walked the earth when I don’t eat. Seriously. The last time I got super hungry, my fiance looked at me and his eye twitched and I FREAKED THE FUCK OUT! It was awful. And I understand that not everyone is like me, but I don’t see how anyone could anyone handle it. I mean, I haven’t eaten in maybe 12 hours and I’m getting some semi-serious hunger pains. I don’t even want to imagine what they’d be like after a few days. I guess they just get to used it? I don’t know. It just confounds me? I think that’s the word I’m looking for. Oh well.
In other parts of my brain, I’m thinking about starting early morning runs/jogs/walks. That way I can get my sleeping schedule to where I like it, and I can try out this running thing that everyone on tumblr seems so fascinated with lol. But for now, I need breakfast and water! Sweet biscuits, am I craving some water right now…
I’m trying to be healthier. I really am. I’ve cut out all junk food, I drink VERY little soda, I’ve started eating a lot more fruits/veggies, and I’m working out (a bit xp). So overall, I’ve started improving my health. But… I haven’t quit smoking. I love cigarettes, but they are SO bad for you. And they make my lung capacity (or w/e it is) so much worse than it could be. That, and I live in all smoker household. I mean, don’t get me wrong, they’ll all support me if I decide to quit. Hell, they’ll all probably say they’ll quit with me, but their very… I don’t know, I don’t want to say weak-willed… Just… Unmotivated? I think? Sigh. I’ll try smoking less, slowly cutting down my cigarette intake week by week and see how things go. Wish me luck?
I’ve been so swamped lately! Had two different celebrations for my fiance’s birthday (camping/drinking with close friends, and dinner/party with family). On top of all that my best friend just recently had a baby so I was helping her with that and now she’s moving back to town so I’m helping her with that. And as if that hasn’t been enough to keep me busy my little sister’s going off to college so I’m doing all I can to help her, and I’ve been more actively looking for a job. With all this going on and regular old drama in my life I’ve sort of lost track on my eating habits and exercise. I did start the body by vi stuff and I’ve been doing that. It’s helped me take off the weight that I put on from the sudden hectic changes, but without exercise it’s really not that fantastic. As much as I hate to admit it, I’m back at around 205. Not too happy about that, but things are starting to calm down so I’m going to go back to exercising regularly and get back to healthy eating. I’m excited to get back into it :) Also gonna try and talk my mom into buying a treadmill so I can walk/run (I’m too embarrassed to go running in public at my current weight). Hopefully she says yes, or I can get a friggin job and buy my own. And maybe even a new computer as a reward once I lose some more weight.
Woke up late today, which is a bummer. Well, the past few days actually. I gotta stop that. Had a delicious cantaloupe for breakfast with some water. About to go try out this Jenny McCarthy workout-wii-thingy or whatever that my mom bought a while back. I just CAN NOT get into Zumba. I’ve never really been all that interested in dancing. Before that though, I’m going to finish watching Ghosts of Mars (or something like that) with my love :)
My Body By Vi shakes should be coming in tomorrow. I’m excited! I cannot wait to stop craving all that shitty food all the time. Gonna talk to my mom about maybe getting us all a gym membership, but I don’t think she’ll go for it; she doesn’t wanna give up her precious gaming. Oh well. I can always try, right?
Haven’t been on in i don’t know how long, and I’m so sorry! I’ve just been swamped! But, now I’m back. And I’m doing great :) We did the Body By Vi challenge party and I’m excited to say that my shake kit thing will be here in a few days. I’m hoping it helps me control my hunger. Other than that not a whole lot has happened.
I made my mom buy mass amounts of fruits/veggies the other day, we now have wheat bread in my house (thank god) and we got a new blender so I’ve been going fruit smoothie crazy.
I haven’t weighed myself lately, but I have noticed my clothes are getting a tiny bit looser ;)
I can’t really think of anything else that’s going on, so… Have a great day and keep at it :)
A family friend told my mom, sister, and I about this today. I like the idea, and my mom seemed really interested. SO! We’re having a challenge taste test party or whatever on Wednesday.
Has anyone seen/heard/read anything about the Body By Vi stuff? If so, could you give me a little bit of info about it? Please and thanks :)
Made myself a delicious scrambled eggs w/ broccoli, cauliflower, and carrots, some wheat toast with a TEENY bit of nutella, and some coffee and water to drink. Was absolutely delicious! Between last nights workout and today’s I am sore. But, it wasn’t really much of a workout compared to what other people do. I am still a beginner though. Thinking about some stair stepper things on the stairs, then go for a nice walk, and some more basic little workout stuff. I’m so looking forward to my new lifestyle and bright new healthy future :)
So I got a puppy a few months back and she is a hyper little bugger! So as I was working out the other day she decided to join in with me. Every jumping jack I did, she’d jump up and spin. Every push up I did she’d swat at he ground. And for every crunch and sit up I’d get an encouraging little lick as I came back down. I LOVED it!
3:30 am and what is everyone else I know doing? Sleeping of course! So, not being tired I decided to stay up and watch tv. And I realized, what on earth am I DOING?! I could be working out! So, I turn on Married With Children and start doing some basic exercises while I watch. Things like jumping jacks, crunches, pushups, sqauts. All that sort of thing. I’m liking this :) I get the satisfaction of tv and the satisfaction of a nice workout. Well, I took a long enough blog break. Back to work :)
So I went out with my mom the other day. As we’re headed out she asks me if I’d rather have McDonald’s or Burger King for breakfast, and I told her neither. So instead we went to a local convenience store and I picked up some fig newtons and a bottle of water. We were just supposed to be going into town to do a little bit of shopping but ended up going to coast instead. And I had a blast. We walked all over the place, and even when I got tired and sore and sweaty and wanted to quit SO badly! But I didn’t! I kept on going and when we finally went out to eat I got a small meal, and for the first time in YEARS I ordered a salad and actually ate the whole thing. Plus, as an added bonus, I actually enjoyed it. Hazlenut, bleu cheese, spinach, and lettuce. I was so happy. And, on top of all that, I ordered myself a soda as well as my water just to prove to myself that I have the will power to not drink it. And I didn’t. I know it may seem silly, but I am really proud of myself.
I’m also thinking about joining a gym. I’m kinda thinking about Anytime Fitness, seeing as it’s open 24/7. Which, honestly, I think would be great for me simply because I am extremely self conscious when it comes to working out. Oh! And it’s close by so I can just walk over there
So, I was wandering around Tumblr in my spare time and out of nowhere I hit a small personal realization. 115 is NOT the weight I want. Sure, it sounds like a “good” weight. But I no longer believe that. Why would I need to be that thin?? Honestly. So, I’ve reset my goal weight. I now am hoping to achieve a weight of 135. I feel like that is a healthy weight. And, not only that, but I believe it will be an easy weight for me to maintain and it will be a body that I will absolutely adore and LOVE to show off.
So, there it is. My new, more realistic goal. I love the idea of this one so much more :)
Looks so good! Gonna have to get the ingredients so I can start making this. And some yogurt and granola. So delicious!!
So I ran into a friend the other day, and the last time I saw her was about 2 months ago. When I saw her today I noticed she had lost a LOT of weight, and I commented on it. She told me she was on the Rave Diet; and that’s what brought about this post.
For those of you who don’t know, the Rave Diet isn’t actually a diet. It’s when you go to a shit load of raves all the time, and do a fuck load of drugs. Those drugs cause you move around a lot and build up a sweat and burn calories, much the same as a workout does. However, these drugs have another effect: loss and/or forgetfulness of your appetite/hunger. Basically, you do almost nonstop moving with very little sleep for duration of the rave (usually 15hrs to 3 days) and you don’t eat while high. Unless of course you’ve gotten used to being high and can now force yourself to eat (which in itself is a horrendous thing). Anyway, this type of lifestyle causes you to lose massive amounts of weight in very little time, but it is EXTREMELY unhealthy.
Once she told me that was how she lost the weight I stopped talking to her for a good half hour or so, however she did strike up another conversation. Blah blah blah, we talked. Eventually we got to the subject of how I’m trying to lose weight. Now, her knowing how much I hate raves and rave drugs (which she atones to my being antisocial) she suggests that I go on the “meth diet” and she told me how she could “hook me up”.
At this point I was outraged. Just to clarify why, I used to be a huge meth addict (clean since Feb. 2011). And yes, while this does make you lose an outrageous amount of weight in a ridiculous amount of time, the negative side effects simply aren’t worth it. They aren’t worth anything. And after I freaked out at her for even suggesting that to me, I got to thinking. There are so many people out there who do things like that, and starve themselves or purge just to be skinny.
So I’m writing this post to let everyone who will ever read this know something. It’s not about being skinny, it’s about being fit. And nothing, especially your well-being is worth that. You always have the choice to work for it. Yes, it’s hard, I know. And yes, it’s slow. But keep this in mind: slow progress IS progress. If you honestly believe that the only way for you to “be hot like those people in the magazines” is to harm yourself in the process than don’t do it. Because believe me, you are beautiful the way you are. And if you ever don’t believe that then talk to me, because it’s true and I’ll always tell you the truth.
You are beautiful.